Cass, Amy and Anna

Not sure what this is going to be about per say, I just feel like if i start typing the thoughts will naturally progress through my brain and come out in some (hopefully) legible form. Idols have been on my mind, not in the Kpop sense but I guess they could be grouped into this discussion, I'm more so speaking to people we individually idolize, even those who don't 'like pop culture' or 'dont like celebrities' still have someone they either conciously or sub conciously idolize, for me I have a good handfull, some that come to mind are Cass Elliot, Amy Winehouse and Anna Nicole Smith. I think of them almost as my own personal holy trinity, three women who I personally believe were wronged by the society around them while they were on this earth and now are still misunderstood in death.

Cass was typecast as the 'mama bear' ever since her public debut, the cruel nick name 'Mama Cass' is veiled in a thin layer of endearment however if you put any thought into it you realize the name comes from a place of dehuminization and desexualization, ripping of her of her right to self determination, in calling her Mama Cass it takes away any youthfullness, any innocence and any playfullness from her persona and forces her into a motherly, matronly, palatable archetype because god forbid a larger woman be young, sexy and fun. I guess I resonate with her story so much due to also being a larger person and being shoehorned into a more motherly role in a lot of situations.

Amy's story breaks my heart equally as much, being painted as some problematic drug addicted party girl when in reality she was going through the horrors of an abusive relationship in the public eye, the amount of paparazzi photos of her in clear distress is diabolical to be blunt, those vermin *ahem* I mean photographers watched a woman close to the edge of ruin plead for help and could only take photos. And then after she passed, using drugs to cope, she was labeled as a druggie and another celebrity who let it get to their head.. Not only was she an iconic and strong woman but she was a fucking person, you'd think people would have given her an ounce of grace but no, they laughed at her alcaholism, laughed at her distress, and sent their sympathies for her death. She was a once in a lifetime talent with one of the most unique voices I've ever come across, it's a shame she was done so wrong by us.

Finally we come to Anna, poor Anna, labeled so many horrible things during her time here, let me tell you the same people who called her a gold digging whore back then are the people now subscribing to fifty onlyfans accounts behind their wives backs. And so what if she went after him for the money? He was an unethical man to put it mildly and she (unlike many others) Gave him the grace of caring for him and making his final years as comfortable as possible, Making him feel in some way that even though he was at the end of his life he 'still had it', and his greedy millionaire children cheated her out of the money she rightfully deserved, thankfully she had money to fall back on but can you imagine if she didn't? How many women like her have gone through similar things just because of their partners children being uncomfortable with their parents having relationships later in life? I'm not saying you're not allowed to have complicated feelingsbut jesus, taking it to court? insanity. Not to mention after his death, she was grieving, she gained some weight, and god damn she wore it well. Insert rickety old Howard Stern calling her a whale and asking her to go on a scale live on air? No reprucussions for that. She was a beautiful woman with an equally beautiful soul and the world failed her time and time again. Like it does with many women.

Anyways thats enough typing for now my back hurts XD