Wednesday June 18 2025
It's been far too long since I updated my blog, hope you all are well! I've been up and down with depression, however things seem to be getting better, I'm feeling inspired once again and mildly optimistic? lol
I wanted to share a few things, for one an amazing collage project done by an amazing artist NoSoxNoSex, Here is the link His work is amazing and if you like my site youll love this!!! My personal favs are the 90s and 2000s!
Also have you all heard Marina's new album? God it is so fucking good, Metallic Stallion has to be my favourite track closely followed by Digital Fantasy, Hello Kitty and Cuntissimo
Anyways I'll attempt to post on here more regurlarly, I hope you all see me as more than tits and cock but also correct opinions
Peace and Puss keep it cunty yatta yatta love ya!
Wednesday May 7 2025
Some things ive been messing around with
Saturday May 3 2025
This is where Im posting from btw
Tuesday April 29 2025
She is so fucking good MY GOD
Sunday April 27 2025
A look into my life
Thursday April 24 2025
Made more gifs of that guy with the massive balls (totally normal I behaviour I know)
Wednesday April 23
Obsessed with this mans balls
Monday April 14 2025
Hey skanks, too long without a yap session, my bad, how are we all doing?
If you ever yearn for more of me and my horrid words please feel free to email me, the human connection does wonders for me
life has been uneventful, have some new clothes coming in the mail soon so hopefully I can serve some cunt in those, I also bought some fun knick knacks recently, Ill have to show y'all at some point
Ive been feeling the urge to write a lot recently, unfortunatley the actual initiative and hutspa it takes to write has alluded me
I've also been in a mild depressive episode, been infrequent with my meds so thats on me lol
Have y'all heard Marina's new music? Its what I need rn
This is my favourite at the moment, very cunty but not as cunty as cuntissimo
Anyways hope y'all are doing okay, we need some faggy wins in this economy
Monday March 31 2025
Male validation keeps me going, unfortunatley...
Idk if I feel better when a gay dude is into me or a straight dude but rn i feel like trash regardless and not sexy trash like kesha circa 2011
Thursday March 27
So i went to my first furry convention! it was genuinely so fun and I met some awesome fkn people!
I have a lot of feelings after the con, 1. I miss drinking all the time, partying and going to raves reminded me of getting drunk all the time back in my friends old basement when I used to have a life XD
CW for mention and discussion of ED Behaviour 2. I have highkey gone of the deep end back into my disordered behaviours, the urge to throw up all my food has been very strong after meeting so many skinny fun party gays. being in 'recovery' is such a weird thing, the thoughts and urges are still there but i just try my best to ignore them, my teeth are already fucked the last thing I need to do is start purging all the time... anyways i was never good at puking since my gag reflex is very hard to trigger, great for after party fun but not good for disordered weight loss.
Seeing these hot skinny gay couples makes me so jealous its insane, like how can you be hot, skinny, funny and partying? aren't y'all supposed to have flaws as well?!??!!? all jokes aside they're really nice people and I'm glad I met them, just going through my silly little complex emotions as I do.
Anyways Hope y'all are slaying
Sunday March 2 2025
Since Mardi Gras is tuesday I collected a group of images that make me have some severe mardi gras fomo
Friday February 21st 2025
I've been listening to a new podcast!!!! Insta Spotify, its all about cryptids and the paranormal and unlike so many other paranormal focused media sources it is not full of total BS and AI slop!!! unbelieveably hard to find. Glad i stumbled upon it!!!
also mental health hasn't been slaying so much lately, but im alive lmao, stay cunty babes
Friday Febrary 14th 2025
Happy Valentines day whores!!!! hope y'all have dates with your hands lmao
Firday February 7th 2025
Wednesday February 5th 2025
Monday February 3rd 2025
watched the grammys last night and we been eating GOOD!!!!!
Shakira!, Chappell!!!, GAGA!!!!! Benson Boones Bulge?????
She sang my fav song!!!! Ojos Asi!!!!!! SO GOOD!!!!
Hes just so..... Ugh i want him so bad
Pink fucking pony club!!!! loved her looks!!! she wore my fav designer on the red carpet too!!!! 2003 Jean Paul Gaultier
Also CYNTHIA!!!!!! She brought her whole jazussy to this song, so so good!!!!
Saturday February 1st 2025
Been really feeling drawn to late 70s and 80s media recently, two movies with similar themes but extremely different themes have stuck out then most, Sleepaway Camp (1983) and Meatballs (1979)
Not sure why the summer camp vibe is drawing me in a lot lately, maybe cause I'm missing the warmth and comfort of summer? probably lol, and the vintage aspect is probably just my preexisiting love of all things vintage shining through, either way if y'all know of any movies with similar vibes/themes plz lmk!
Also its February!!! wild lmao, can't wait for spring tho, i'm so over the cold and snow
Don't forget to drink some water today!
Sunday January 26 2025
Sorry I haven't been updating the site a lot, life has been tough, It's very hard to afford food right now as well as bills. Even with the foodbank our fridge is so empty now. It's been hard to feel creative when being so stressed about all of this, that and we've just had two more horses dumped on us, not the end of the world but more work for us and more money spent on them. Hopefully I caan figure some things out, I've been through so much worse than this and gotten out fine but now I just feel so worn out and drained that I barely have it in me to keep trying, we don't own the house anymore, we rely on the foodbank, I swear its a miracle that the bills get paid every month, the only reason i have a vape is cuz I found one I had lost during the summer that still has some juice in it. It doesn't help that I've been neglecting to take my anti depressants, they help me a lot but I forget them often, I haven't done my makeup in what feels like weeks, haven't gotten dressed up for the fun of it, hell i've barely brushed my hair this week, I look and feel awful right now but maybe taking the time to acknowledge all of this will kick me out of this rut? Getting sick a week ago didn't help either, i missed a few days of work that I'll severely miss the money for.
Anyways thats enough of me whining, just wanted to write it down somewhere, peace and love y'all
P.S Dear Sally from the Valley, I just saw your guestbook comment, thank you for looking past my flashy exterior and giving me and my page the time of day. I haven't gotten to play veilguard yet but as soon as I'm able I will be! it looks soo good! and I'm glad to find someone else who appreciates Anna Nicole Smith as much as I do! Hope you're well
Thursday January 23 2025
MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND (Who is supposed to be quit smoking) ASHED HIS FUCKING CIGGY IN MY DRINK AND FORGOT TO TELL ME
i (naievly) TOOK A SIP OF MY OWN DRINK AND WHEN IT TASTED OFF I (stupidly) SWISHED IT AROUND MY MOUTH
cIGARETTE COLA TASTES LIKE ASS
Thursday January 16 2025
I got a cute little VHS TV for free today on my local buy nothing group, very cutesy gonna have to try some of my old VHS tapes and see if they work!
In other news I have a kink that I have been unable to find content for, it's a purely fantasy/fiction driven one and is def on the risque side adjacent to guro communities as well as ballbusting and that sort of stuff but I can't seem to find a name for this specific thing, I would delve into it here but for once in my life I am embarrased XD, oh who am I kidding I'll go into it but if any of y'all make fun of me i hope you know you'll be in my note
Ok so its this very specifric scenario when a guy gets like vaporized or disintegrates or explodes? but like not in a super gorey way (not that I'm picky) Preferably less blood tho, I like it when it happens in a sexual scenario tho, the closest media I can find is succubus stuff when she like drains the life force out of the guy. The way I discovered I liked this was This Comic but I haven't been able to find anything like it at all! (Pages 20-24 are specifically what I am talking about)
And I mean yes i could write my own content but thats work!!!! XD I already have my ballbusting page Here So it's not a far off shoot to start writing other kinks I would just wanna host them seperatley which is also not difficult. Maybe I'm just scared of taking another project on right now... Idk but If i do start writing stories like these I'll let y'all know XD
I used to have this friend on discord who would 1000% be able to help me out but I lost contact with him and forget his username :( He was such a perv he knew everything there was about internet porn (mostly stories and hentai tho)
Anyways have a good night y'all
Friday January 10 2025
Living the life in the Stardew Valley
Wednesday January 8 2025
Made these and needed to share them lmao
Saturday January 4 2025
I went to a bar with some friends last night and found out I really fucking love vodka redbull, also jameson and gingerale... I will say I shaved for nothing it was a straight bar and it was all couples anyways :( but like I served cunt so it's ok lmao
Also I saw a person I went to school with perform with their band and like!!!! so fkn good, and yes they played hot to go!
Wednesday January 1 2025
Hope y'all are doing well, I started the new year on a good note and organized my pc and cleaned my room!!!!! Ily
Tuesday December 31 2024
What a fucking year....... let's do it all again sometime
Monday December 30 2024
Obsessed with this performance of Just For Now by Imogen Heap!!!
Sunday December 29 2024
Hi y'all hope you all had a good holiday season, mine was pretty stress free for once!!!! (crazy shit lmao) I got some really nice gifts from friends and family and had a delcisious fawking meal
The weather in my part of the world has been miserbale this month, it's supposedly winter but it looks like a very muddly and cold fall still just without all the pretty leaves and pumpkins :(
But! I'm trying to stay positive lmao, been working a lot on the site and it's been bringing me so much joy lol, also my fish is thriving which also makes me happy
I unfortunatley downloaded instagram again, the amount of gore content on reels is fucking crazy dude, I'm not usually offended by it but seeing it right after a fashion video or a cute cat video is jarring to say the least, I also don't think that those videos being so accessible to kids is really good at all, I can't say shit tho cause when i was their age I was on liveleak and bestgore 24/7 (also MeetNFuck Games used to be my SHITTTT Like I was obsessed with those lmao)
Anyways hope y'all are well! I'm gonna try and be more active on my blog this new year , I should make a resolutions post!
Sunday December 22 2024
Here's a little graphic I made of what loot I would drop if you killed me
Wednesday December 18 2024
Just found these old drawings people on tumblr did of my Hunger Games self insert OC and I thought I'd share lmao
Wednesday December 11 2024
As you all well know I am a mentally unwell individual, well maybe I wouldn't go as far as to say unwell... derranged perhaps? Kooky? ... Not the point lol, I had an epiphany while I was wathcing youtube documentaries (as one does), the ones I have been enjoying lately have been predominantly about online cults and groups like them
Watching these videos at first i have the expected reaction of being appauled and shocked and such ... and then I have this feeling of like.. well why can't I be targeted by a cult? groomed into something sketchy.. am I not pretty enough? not cute enough? and then I took a step back and thought long and hard about how weird it is for my brain to go there of all places...
I have similar thoughts about serial killers, am I just not pretty enough to be targeted? stalked? butchered? sadly I think the answer is yes
Anyways live laugh love and if anyone has a cult they want me to join my morals are VERY flexible
Friday December 6 2024
I have gone through multiple boxes of things and found two digital cameras!!!!!!, They're both exactly what I was looking for am so happy, hopefully I will post some pictures I took on them here soon, rn I'm feeling lazy lol. I also have a fish, his name is Mortimer, he is a red and black Betta. I got him from a cleaning job. I also got some homemade tomato sauce from same cleaning job. Recently my fav thing in my room has been my wrong colour snow white statuette, she is pink blue and orange, also blonde, she's messy just like me. Sometimes I think about downloadig grindr for validation but then I remember I hate the feeling of being seen IRL XD.
Stay safe y'all
Saturday November 30 2024
Hope y'all are doing well today, I went thrifting!!!!! I bought a little plastic desk chair that's pink!!!!! I like to change it out with my old cushiony desk chair every now and then cause my old one is lookin rough and makes some scary noises whenever I lean back lol
I also got a cunty hat!!! Maybe i'll do some photos in it soon!
It has become winter here, It is too cold, i do not love the snow, maybe Imogen Heap can get me through this
My dog just presented me with a gourd, I am honoured...
Friday November 29 2024
I hope y'all know this is where I am posting from
Thursday November 28 2024
It's been interesting recently, the highlight of my life has been stumbling upon an abandoned backpack on the side of my street, I looked closer and before going through it brought it home, I was extremely surprised to find it was full of fifty five 90s porno DVD's!!!! Mostly hairy pussy and milf stuff, my fav title being Old Saggy Baggies XD, My real fav though is big cocks! that's the title lmao, I have been blessed by the physical media gods and given roughly 500 dollars worth of DVD 90s porn!!! As a self proclaimed p[orn archivist this is huge for me lmao
I need to find a way to make porn historian/ porn archivist a liviable job.... if anyone can do it it's gonna be my gay ass
Friday November 22 2024
sometimes I forget how lonely highschool was, at least most of it. I had a decently sized group of friends, going to a small school (500 students max) Made it so all people who were classified as 'odd' grouped togehter, wether we had anything in common or not was irrelevent, in that moment we were all different and that forced us together.
Looking back i think of how underdeveloped my brain must have been, I never really talked to any of my friends for the longest time, sure there was the mindless banter of day to day activities, but for the first three years of highschool I can't remember one single meaningful conversation, I never expressed my interests with my friends, I was just kind of there, while they were all off having relationships and trying new things I was just the same old me, private but extroverted, talking loud but barely saying anything meaningfull.
I remember I used to be obsessed with a handful of youtubers (Shane Dawson, Gabbi Hanna, Connor Franta, Joey Graceffa, Tyler Oakley, Mamrie and Hannah Hart, Grace Helbig, etc), as well as the 'tumblr' era musicians (Marina, Troye, Lana, etc) I even ran fan pages about some of them yet I never expressed my interests with any of my friends, Thinking about that now almost feels absurd as I am quite the yapper when it comes to things I enjoy
Anyways this isn't the point I wanted to rant about, What spurred this on was seeing a trailer for a gay highschool romance movie, it made me recall how desperate I used to be for connection. I am now in a loving relationship of almost 4 years, but 13-18 year old me was convinced I would be single forever, not for lack of interest on my part but because I percieved myself as 'unlovable' and 'ugly'.
I remember so vividly the feeling of lonliness when my friends would talk about their love lives, The closest I had to what they experienced was creepy old men online who wanted nothing good from me. I get teary eyed even thinking of it now, I feel as though I missed out on something that every human should have the option to experience, I feel broken, like there is something fundamentally wrong with me
Thankfully my partner and I have done a lot of work to combat these feelings, I now do know my worth and that I deserve love, but after having those constant self hating thoughts for years.... it's almost hardwired into my brain. I sometimes find myself lying awake at night imagining scenarios where it all went differently, where a big strong man whisked me away in the midst of my darkest days back then and made me feel like a princess.... I do wonder If i'll ever get to feel like a princess, or will I always be the worn out person I've become...
Anyways... we'll see how life pans out, I realize I am only 22 and I have a lot ahead of me, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like a worn out shell of who I used to be
love you guys
Thursday November 21 2024
Been a long ass day lol, lot's of work today and yesterday.... but overall am alive.
Wanted to share some links to things I've enjoyed recently!
This 'gays only' page by America's Decline!
And this post about collecting things online by KIMN!
Also this!
Tuesday November 19 2024
Birthday!!!!! I am 22 now, feeling cutsey
Enjoy this video of the best half time show in history
Sunday November 17 2024
Today I cut my finger while chopping potatoes, very sad, it is wrapped right now lol pray for my weak ass
I feel the need to share some music I have been listening to
Hope y'all have a good day! sending love your way
Also I thoroughly enjoy this game from my childhood
Romance Academy — Heartbeat of Love
Play Now!
Saturday November 16 2024
Been having a decent time recently, worked a lot during the week but so far my weekend has been a little more relaxing. My boyfriend has been experementing with his hair and I absolutely love it, makes me feel like I should put more effort into my appearance lol, also my birthday is coming up!!!! the 19th!!! I'll be turning 22, ageing is such an odd thing, I fear it and embrace it at the same time.
Does anyone remember the Miami boys choir? that one video is so nice to watch, they all have such nice voices even though I don't understand hebrew. I've always loved choirs, I have now decided I am going to link some videos here of choirs I enjoy.
Starting with the Miami Boys
This video from the UTC Choir has always been a fav of mine
This one from the St. Olaf Choir tickles my brain quite well, This has always been my favourite christmas carol
This one also goes hard, very very good, Stellenbosch University Choir
Ugh this one!!!!! Goes so hard!!!! I love this
Ugh The Orchestra???? The voice?!?!?!?! So good!
This one is so fuggin good
One thing about me is I am a pitch perfect girlie
Also this banger once again Miami Boys
Sunday November 10 2024
In true me fashion I waited way too long to give something that was popular/trending a listen/watch, this time it was the amazing music of Ethel Cain, idk why it takes me so long to set time aside to listen to these things, i was a year late to Chappell Roan, I was late to Bojack Horseman (Only binged it after the last season came out), I was late to BRAT Summer it ended up being a BRAT Fall for me, The list goes on, it's like I'm averse to interacting with something as soon as it gets popular, which is one of my more annoying little quirks, faults? Not sure what to call it.
Anyways this song is really good love it love it love seeing transfems thrive
Also I think I;m finally getting to the point where I don't get extremely depressed every time I go down the nostalgia rabbit hole, perhaps I'm becoming happy with the person I've become...
Also this lmao
This video has a chokehold on me
Friday November 8 2024
Hi y'all, been having a decent time recently although I haven't been pursuing much creatively. Had a really good time last night playing Mario Kart on the Wii with my partner and my dad, I'm still so bad at it lmao. It's quite chilly today, had to wear a jacket. Two days ago I adopted 3 bonded roosters!!! They're very sweet! Unsure on names right now but my fav idea so far is naming them Roberto, Fernando and Alejandro inspired by the Lady Gaga song, I'd probably just call them Robbie, Fern and Ali though. My dad wants to call them Alvin, Theodore and Simon which just feels so unoriginal lol.
Anywhere heres a pic of them!
Also my grandmas PSW was amazing today! they're watching "the perfect couple" On netflix together and honestly it is so nice to see someone take time out of their day to be with her, even tho she is getting paid for it lmao. I made them some grilled cheese. also me and bf bought takis and they were too spicy... very sad...
Monday November 4 2024
Fanlisting got accepted to tfl!!! let's hope it gets listed soon lol, this has me thinking though, once this one is up and running perhaps I should make more, but like... what would they be about? I'm thinking I want my niche to be adult things, preferably gay in nature, My first is Balls!!! Some other ideas I have though are Ballbusting, BWC, Pierced Cocks, Gooning, BubbleButts?. As for non NSFW listings I could go with a Troye Sivan listing for sure, if there isn't already one, maybe a Kim Petras Listing would be fun too, also I'd like to make fanlistings for Juicy Couture and Ed Hardy as well, perhaps I could also branch out into other things, Is there a Gravity Falls Fanlisting already? What about Scooby Doo? There must be a scooby doo one! Anyways I want to make sure my first site gets listed before I do any more, would hate to get ahead of myself lol
Also I am OBSESSED With this video of Chappell Roan singing Bad Romance
Also this video of Chappell performing Good Luck Babe! At the VMA's
Omg I couldn't not share this as a Ghost fan and a Chappell fan
Hope y'all have a good day! Stay nasty
Sunday November 3 2024
Hi!!! Had a great halloween with family, Me my grandparents, parents, partner and brother in law eating a shit ton of candy and pizza lol.
Been playing Mario Kart on my Wii a lot recently, I'm total shit at it lmao
Currently listening to a live performance of Running up that hill performed by Kim Petras
Other than that I've been working on my fanlisting a lot, It's about Balls lmao, testicles if you will. One of my favourite things in this life
Also I've been obsessed with watching Tina Turner's old live performances, she has such a powerful voice
Also!!!! This live performance from Shakira's early career, one of my fav songs from her
Also this tiny desk concert by Chappell Roan!!!
Anyways hope y'all are doing well, feel free to shoot me an email whenever it would significantly improve my day
Tuesday October 29 2024
I've been getting really into fan listings recently, I'd also like to get into webrings but it seems as an nsfw site I am not welcome in most of them. AnYwAys I have come up with a mini list of ideas for fan listings that I would like to create/join, some of these may already exist I just haven't come across them yet. Adam Ant, Troye Sivan, Juicy Couture, Ed Hardy, Knick Knacks, Hello Kitty, Balls (testicles), Hairy Men, Unicorns, Dollar Store among many other things. Once I find out how to properly make my first fanlisting I'm sure the others will fall in line but at the moment I feel clueless lol, although a year ago I felt clueless when it came to making my own website and here I am now!!!! Also perhaps one day I will make a webring, Something like "Dirty Internet" Webring or a name like that specifically for indie websites that have pornographic or sexually charged content on them or are open to content of the sort. Anyways that's my little ramble for now, also I went to the dentist for the first time in five years, y'all should be very proud of me XD. Oh! and it's almost halloween!!!! I'm so excited!.
Edit! It's midnight I have to go to sleep very soon I have work in the morning but I wanted to share this song + music video I just stumbled across (click the image to go to the music video)
"Jerkin" By Amyl and The Sniffers
Sunday October 27 2024
Hi there I'm a little down today, today was supposed to be my halloween party but nobody could make it,,, I'll live but it just kinda sad. Also I am for some reason filled with regrets right now, perhaps it's all the trolling I did on tumblr in my youth coming back to haunt me, perhaps I just need to take my prozac,, either way I feel bad and am not sure why. I heard about the menendez brothers recently, and they fall into the category of "I think the person they killed deserved it" Them and Gypsy Rose along with a few others evoke this odd feeling in me, I am a huge pacifist, I don't think violence solves any issue and I dont think we as people should ever kill one another, that being said I think these peoples abusers got what was coming to them, lot's of mental gymnastics on my part I know but still, it's an odd thing to have a dialogue about in my brain. I don't know If i can say in ernest that anyone deserves to die but whenever I say that a lot of people hit me with the "what ifs" and "what abouts". Anyways as always stay hydrated and have as good a day as possible
Wednesday October 23 2024
Been feeling the seasonal (year round) depression begin to trickle in the back of my mind, but I've been doing my best to fight it, being broke definitley doesn't help things but eh,,, on the plus side everythings been really pretty recently, nice oranges, reds, yellows etc. not sure how long the leaves will last though. I think I'm mostly over my cold now but knowing me this is just the beginning of a very bumpy flu season, might wanna get my flu shot sometime sooner than later. In other news I've gotten around to writing more! Of course it's filthy debauched smut but a creative effort nonetheless. I'm going to attach some quick snaps I took of the leaves on the tree out front of my house today, once again I hope you all are doing well and If you are taking time out of your busy day to read my rambles I want you to know I am extremely grateful for you. XOXO Please remember to treat yourself with kindness and grace.
Monday October 21 2024
Todays been a day lol, done lot's of cleaning and such, as well as partaking in some creative endeavours, I actually got off my tushy and wrote some stuff for my blogspot!!!!! It's not much but I'm glad I'm getting back into the creative swing of things.
Also I wanted to come on here and share a pic of my earring rack, I love my earrings and I think y'all will too!
Sunday October 20 2024
I've been doing a lot of thinking recently, also a lot of reading, I thoroughly enjoy reading all my neocities neighbors manifestos/blog posts/misc writings and such because they all (for the most part) inspire me to make positive changes in my life. One that has stuck out to me a lot today has been Tinas Dephoning Guide I already kind of do this to some extent but not really, I still have facebook and find myself doom scrolling, I still have that god awful Temu app downloaded on my phone even though I never buy anything off it, I still let snapchat scan my facial features daily. I think today I'm going to start the concious push to start phasing my phone out of my life as much as I possibly can, the only thing that might be sad is Snapchat, I have an 800 day streak with my best friend and even though I know it doesn't mean much It's just nice to have an excuse to talk to them and others daily, If i end up keeping one corporate malicious app on my phone it will probably be snapchat. Although I will never forgive snapchat fpr taking bitstrips offline, that was my absolute favourite website on the internet for years and they stole it from us. Evil bastards. As for other "dephoning" things I already use my PC for a lot of things, and my digital camera too, although I think I can make an effort to do more on these instead of my phone, I'm vert lucky my bf bought me my PC for my birthday! It cost like 400$ but really It's worth it, I'd like to switch to using Linux instead of Windows and Firefox instead of google chrome in the future though.
Hope you all have a good day today and don't forget to drink some water!!!!!
Bonus heres a pic of a graveyard near me I took forever ago lol
Tuesday October 15 2024
Today has gone by quick so far, Worked with the horses in the morning and thankfully nothing went wrong, I love my tall stupid babies lmao, then was treated to a free thanksgiving lunch! Turkey, Potatoes, Stuffing, Corn, Carrots and Gravy. As well as a piece of Pumpkin Pie.... I forgot how much I loved pumpkin fucking pie. I feel like i've been neglecting to keep my space clean and tidy recently and its really been bothering me, I feel claustrophobic sitting at my own desk, perhaps BF and I will take some time today to give our room a deep clean, all depends on how many spoons we each have left, other than that life has been pretty uneventful, I did get around to posting another story on my blogspot though, warning it's smut without much plot lol, still proud of it though, I think it came out to 1.9k words or something like that.
anyways hope y'all are well, now I will bless you with a pic of my cat I took on my digital camera.
Saturday October 12 2024
Went to the local fall fair with my bf today!!! had a great time!!! Posted some pics of me in my photos page, hope y'all are doing well and enjoying the fall season
fall fair seaosn is my fvourite time of the year, candy and popcorn as well as over priced jewelry!!! Also rlly good lemonade
Also saw a horse!!! I own horses so it wasn't that crazy for me but walking on the sidewalk and being walked up on by a horse is def an experience
Thursday October 10 2024 pt.2
Omg saw the Aurora Borealis over my house!!!! heres some pics
this totally explains why ppl were hanging around on the side of the street earlier lmao
Thursday October 10 2024
today was a longggg day, woke up at 5:30 to go to my first job, got back at 12:00, Had a home interview with people from my grandmothers PSW company at 1:00 and they asked SO many questions, then at 3:30 went to my second job and got home around 8:00, THEN when I finally thought the day was over a bunch of people parked their cars outside our house (unusual cause we're in the country) and were like hanging out? which is fine but it stressed me out cause theres been a lot of home invasions in neighboring areas lately, on the plus side today my BF made a nice dinner for everyone, and the fall colours have been looking beautiful recently.
In other me related news I smoked a couple menthols today... that's rlly abt it lol
Hope y'all are doing well! Don't forget to hydrate and stay spooky!
as I was writing this I accidentally inhaled some mountain dew XD coughed my fucking lungs out
Sunday October 6 2024
Lately I feel as though I never have time to fully enjoy my hobbies, I wake up, clean, work, get home, clean, try to have fun, feel tired, sleep, repeat. That's not to say I have absolutley no free time It's just that I feel like I don't have enough, and when I do have it I feel stuck. I'd love nothing more than to watch one movie a day, Write new fanficitons whenever I want, Create art and listen to music 24/7 but instead I sit in the emptiness of it all and zone out, i forget to enjoy myself and by the time I remember I want to do these things I'm too tired and unmotivated, How can I get over this??? There's so much out there to be read, heard and seen and I sit here experiencing none of it due to restrictions I set on myself. I will be trying hard to push myself to do the things I enjoy more, I just don't understand why it feels like a chore to my brain when it's supposed to be something I do to make myself feel better or relaxed.
Anyways live laugh slay hope you guys are doing well and don't forget to hydrate!!!!
OH also me and my BF learned how to mod our 3DS and pirate games onto it I'm pretty buzzed abt that
Wednesday October 2 2024
A Slice of my life, some photos I snapped of things In my room
Hope this gives you a window into my life and the kinda bitch I am lmao Happy halloween month and stay hydrated!
Tuesday October 1st
Had work this morning and am feeling good right now, For those who don't know I have two jobs right now, my primary is my cleaning job, I clean four different offices in the city as well as a couple houses on the side, my other job is working with racehorses with my family. All of this as well as keeping my house in order feels like a lot, Although I think all of this has made me the best housewife possible lmao (Cooking, Cleaning, Farm Work)
I'm also pretty busy taking care of my grandparents, It's nice spending time with my grandmother tho, My bf I and her paint our nails and watch cooking shows when we get the chance and honestly it's the highlight of my day most of the time. In other news I've rearranged my room with my bf and its so cute!!!! we have a little kitchenette now which is super helpful.
As summer is ending i'm beginning to fear the winter, I'm not ready for the cold to come in and kill all the plants. I hope next summer I'm not as busy and I get to grow my garden more than I did this year, All my plants ended up looking sad and droopy. I'd like to try pickeling things perhaps, cucumbers? Peppers? can you pickle peppers? What about zuchinni? Carrots? Tomatos??? These are all things I want to grow lol.
This blog post made no sense but neither do I so that's ok hope y'all have a lovely day
Also Happy sPOOKY MONTH!!!!
Friday September 27 2024
So I thought I'd come on here and list some songs I've been liking recently <3333
Wednesday September 25 2024
Theres something to be said for going to your local thrift store and sifting through the back forgotten corners of it, my favourite overlooked place to look is the art section, my walls are absolutely covered and I mean COVERED In art I’ve saved from thrift stores, so many beautiful, quirky and odd pieces of home made art that would’ve been forgotten about. I like to look at them all and wonder what the previous walls they sat on looked like, what were the rooms they looked out on like? did other people like me admire them? Anyways all I’m saying here is either buy art straight from the artist or thrift it!!!!
Tuesday September 24 2024
Personally I’ve always found that smelling good was at the top of my priority list, mostly because it’s one of the first things you notice about a person whether or not you like it, this has lead me to having a wide variety of perfumes, colognes, body sprays and scented moisturizers (shoutout to bath and body works lmao). Looking at my little table full of 75% full bottles of perfume I wonder to myself if other people also have tables full of lotions and potions like I do or if I am the outlier in this situation. I think it’s worth noting I am also the kind of person who keeps a drawer FULL of nail polishes in every colour *just in case* … perhaps this stems from the hoarding tendencies I inherited from my grandmother or perhaps this is just me being a girlypop muthafucka. Either way I am left here at my computer with…. *counts them quickly* TWENTY ONE perfumes and colognes sitting next to me. Live Laugh Slay I guess XD