Saturday November 16 2024

Been having a decent time recently, worked a lot during the week but so far my weekend has been a little more relaxing. My boyfriend has been experementing with his hair and I absolutely love it, makes me feel like I should put more effort into my appearance lol, also my birthday is coming up!!!! the 19th!!! I'll be turning 22, ageing is such an odd thing, I fear it and embrace it at the same time.

Does anyone remember the Miami boys choir? that one video is so nice to watch, they all have such nice voices even though I don't understand hebrew. I've always loved choirs, I have now decided I am going to link some videos here of choirs I enjoy.

Sunday November 10 2024

In true me fashion I waited way too long to give something that was popular/trending a listen/watch, this time it was the amazing music of Ethel Cain, idk why it takes me so long to set time aside to listen to these things, i was a year late to Chappell Roan, I was late to Bojack Horseman (Only binged it after the last season came out), I was late to BRAT Summer it ended up being a BRAT Fall for me, The list goes on, it's like I'm averse to interacting with something as soon as it gets popular, which is one of my more annoying little quirks, faults? Not sure what to call it.

Anyways this song is really good love it love it love seeing transfems thrive

Also I think I;m finally getting to the point where I don't get extremely depressed every time I go down the nostalgia rabbit hole, perhaps I'm becoming happy with the person I've become...

Also this lmao

This video has a chokehold on me

Friday November 8 2024

Hi y'all, been having a decent time recently although I haven't been pursuing much creatively. Had a really good time last night playing Mario Kart on the Wii with my partner and my dad, I'm still so bad at it lmao. It's quite chilly today, had to wear a jacket. Two days ago I adopted 3 bonded roosters!!! They're very sweet! Unsure on names right now but my fav idea so far is naming them Roberto, Fernando and Alejandro inspired by the Lady Gaga song, I'd probably just call them Robbie, Fern and Ali though. My dad wants to call them Alvin, Theodore and Simon which just feels so unoriginal lol.

Anywhere heres a pic of them!

Also my grandmas PSW was amazing today! they're watching "the perfect couple" On netflix together and honestly it is so nice to see someone take time out of their day to be with her, even tho she is getting paid for it lmao. I made them some grilled cheese. also me and bf bought takis and they were too spicy... very sad...

Monday November 4 2024

Fanlisting got accepted to tfl!!! let's hope it gets listed soon lol, this has me thinking though, once this one is up and running perhaps I should make more, but like... what would they be about? I'm thinking I want my niche to be adult things, preferably gay in nature, My first is Balls!!! Some other ideas I have though are Ballbusting, BWC, Pierced Cocks, Gooning, BubbleButts?. As for non NSFW listings I could go with a Troye Sivan listing for sure, if there isn't already one, maybe a Kim Petras Listing would be fun too, also I'd like to make fanlistings for Juicy Couture and Ed Hardy as well, perhaps I could also branch out into other things, Is there a Gravity Falls Fanlisting already? What about Scooby Doo? There must be a scooby doo one! Anyways I want to make sure my first site gets listed before I do any more, would hate to get ahead of myself lol

Also I am OBSESSED With this video of Chappell Roan singing Bad Romance

Also this video of Chappell performing Good Luck Babe! At the VMA's

Omg I couldn't not share this as a Ghost fan and a Chappell fan

Hope y'all have a good day! Stay nasty

Sunday November 3 2024

Hi!!! Had a great halloween with family, Me my grandparents, parents, partner and brother in law eating a shit ton of candy and pizza lol.

Been playing Mario Kart on my Wii a lot recently, I'm total shit at it lmao

Currently listening to a live performance of Running up that hill performed by Kim Petras

Tuesday October 29 2024

I've been getting really into fan listings recently, I'd also like to get into webrings but it seems as an nsfw site I am not welcome in most of them. AnYwAys I have come up with a mini list of ideas for fan listings that I would like to create/join, some of these may already exist I just haven't come across them yet. Adam Ant, Troye Sivan, Juicy Couture, Ed Hardy, Knick Knacks, Hello Kitty, Balls (testicles), Hairy Men, Unicorns, Dollar Store among many other things. Once I find out how to properly make my first fanlisting I'm sure the others will fall in line but at the moment I feel clueless lol, although a year ago I felt clueless when it came to making my own website and here I am now!!!! Also perhaps one day I will make a webring, Something like "Dirty Internet" Webring or a name like that specifically for indie websites that have pornographic or sexually charged content on them or are open to content of the sort. Anyways that's my little ramble for now, also I went to the dentist for the first time in five years, y'all should be very proud of me XD. Oh! and it's almost halloween!!!! I'm so excited!.

Edit! It's midnight I have to go to sleep very soon I have work in the morning but I wanted to share this song + music video I just stumbled across (click the image to go to the music video)

Sunday October 27 2024

Hi there I'm a little down today, today was supposed to be my halloween party but nobody could make it,,, I'll live but it just kinda sad. Also I am for some reason filled with regrets right now, perhaps it's all the trolling I did on tumblr in my youth coming back to haunt me, perhaps I just need to take my prozac,, either way I feel bad and am not sure why. I heard about the menendez brothers recently, and they fall into the category of "I think the person they killed deserved it" Them and Gypsy Rose along with a few others evoke this odd feeling in me, I am a huge pacifist, I don't think violence solves any issue and I dont think we as people should ever kill one another, that being said I think these peoples abusers got what was coming to them, lot's of mental gymnastics on my part I know but still, it's an odd thing to have a dialogue about in my brain. I don't know If i can say in ernest that anyone deserves to die but whenever I say that a lot of people hit me with the "what ifs" and "what abouts". Anyways as always stay hydrated and have as good a day as possible

Wednesday October 23 2024

Been feeling the seasonal (year round) depression begin to trickle in the back of my mind, but I've been doing my best to fight it, being broke definitley doesn't help things but eh,,, on the plus side everythings been really pretty recently, nice oranges, reds, yellows etc. not sure how long the leaves will last though. I think I'm mostly over my cold now but knowing me this is just the beginning of a very bumpy flu season, might wanna get my flu shot sometime sooner than later. In other news I've gotten around to writing more! Of course it's filthy debauched smut but a creative effort nonetheless. I'm going to attach some quick snaps I took of the leaves on the tree out front of my house today, once again I hope you all are doing well and If you are taking time out of your busy day to read my rambles I want you to know I am extremely grateful for you. XOXO Please remember to treat yourself with kindness and grace.

Monday October 21 2024

Todays been a day lol, done lot's of cleaning and such, as well as partaking in some creative endeavours, I actually got off my tushy and wrote some stuff for my blogspot!!!!! It's not much but I'm glad I'm getting back into the creative swing of things.

Also I wanted to come on here and share a pic of my earring rack, I love my earrings and I think y'all will too!

Sunday October 20 2024

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently, also a lot of reading, I thoroughly enjoy reading all my neocities neighbors manifestos/blog posts/misc writings and such because they all (for the most part) inspire me to make positive changes in my life. One that has stuck out to me a lot today has been Tinas Dephoning Guide I already kind of do this to some extent but not really, I still have facebook and find myself doom scrolling, I still have that god awful Temu app downloaded on my phone even though I never buy anything off it, I still let snapchat scan my facial features daily. I think today I'm going to start the concious push to start phasing my phone out of my life as much as I possibly can, the only thing that might be sad is Snapchat, I have an 800 day streak with my best friend and even though I know it doesn't mean much It's just nice to have an excuse to talk to them and others daily, If i end up keeping one corporate malicious app on my phone it will probably be snapchat. Although I will never forgive snapchat fpr taking bitstrips offline, that was my absolute favourite website on the internet for years and they stole it from us. Evil bastards. As for other "dephoning" things I already use my PC for a lot of things, and my digital camera too, although I think I can make an effort to do more on these instead of my phone, I'm vert lucky my bf bought me my PC for my birthday! It cost like 400$ but really It's worth it, I'd like to switch to using Linux instead of Windows and Firefox instead of google chrome in the future though.

Hope you all have a good day today and don't forget to drink some water!!!!!

Bonus heres a pic of a graveyard near me I took forever ago lol