When I need to vent I vent

People are so genuinely fucked. Just watching the horrid world spin by and all they can say for themselves is “I can’t do anything about it”. Maybe we as a species are doomed, I genuinely believe that there are very few good people out there, because somehow everyone has just decided to become self centered, egotistical, self important twats.

Also praying for everyone who works at the oil refineries to reap what they sow. Praying for every person who works for over bearing Meta or Google to get whats coming to them, Praying for every politician, local to federal to feel the wrath of the people they fucked over. Praying for every person who looks the other way to have someone look they other way to their suffering.

For some reason tonight I am feeling spiteful, vengeful, angry and tired, people are so horrible, so cruel, so evil to each other, its becoming harder and harder to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Too many people are content to just lay down and let life rape them senslessly and contrary to my receiving end CNC kink I am not one of them.

Why would I quit vaping? I type as I puff on my razz black currant STLTH bar. If the world is so evil why cant I find some solace in my flavoured box of joyous nicotine, At the very least I try to be kind to the people I see throughout the day, Not always of course I am a conniving cunt who has bad days, but i feel it is naive to just think that every self centered prick out there is just having an “off day”. I am so over giving people the “grace” they do not deserve, like yeah you almost hit me on the highway and would’ve killed my whole family, I think i get to call you a fucking cow out my window.

In some peoples stories Im sure I’m the evil one, I try not to be, but Its probably happened, Hell I can think of three people right now, They’ll never see this so I’ll name them for shits sake. Roz, Haileigh and Gill, I am most certainly not portrayed in a good light in their stories, I was dismissive of Roz at best, and rude at worst, although she was no angel herself, abandoning friends in unknown locations, giving her boyfriend Chlamydia and what she did to Wolff. Hailiegh was a bit of a presumptuous bitch near the end, but we started off so good, I know when I fell into alcoholism I neglected our friendship, at my worst I dragged her down with me, but she was no angel either, dare I bring up what happened with her ex, and the whole therapy lie? Gill…. I have a lot of words for her, she was something else, we were close at once, but then it blew up when her mental health blew up, Ill admit near the end I was fake, I was also 19 and drunk for 80% of it but still, fake as an eyelash in thailand. BUT, my sins were nowhere NEAR the lows of which she would go, I know she thinks I hate her for no reason, but trying to sleep with multiple 16-17 year olds when ur 23 is not a good look bitch, not to mention her proclamations of being an “IRL shotacon”.... Like is that supposed to mean anything other than pedo??? I do mourn the girl you were Gill, you were kind ish, fake but friendly, down to party, now you hook up with men in the homeless shelter and doxx people at the psych ward, Im ok being the villain in her story, If i could change the others I would but not her, I shouldve slapped her when I had the chance, I fealt good about slappig Cassie that one time, rich cunt had it coming, and ofc now shes maga, how shocking, poor little rich girl with an eating disorder!!! Feel bad for her!!! XD See theres that vindictive streak coming out, Maybe I need to change my meds or maybe I need to do some fucking coke but either way I am so not doing ok right now, My only solace has been 2 broke girls and Clarckson Farms, although the latter makes me angry, with all the red tape bullshit and power horny town council members who cum from making peoples lives harder, I have to pace how much I watch.

Anyways hope if you read this you enjoyed my stream of thought, lets hope I feel better sometime.